Why then do you overanalyze and overthink every detail? Is it to prove to yourself of your existence? That you exist because you take notice? That should you analyze and run every possible output of this reality, that you may find the key? Or that someone else may take notice?
A mantra then:
“All of life flows to me with ease, joy, and glory.”
This moment is as it is, there is zero that can be done to change that. The next is probable and can be affected. If ever given the choice of knowing your future, look to every way to say no. For if you knew of your future greatness, you’d spend every moment before then wishing to be there. For if you knew of your future demise, you’d spend every moment before then in some form of anxiety about it. The future is not to be known, it is to be enjoyed and experienced, to merely sit and be.
The ego provokes the individual to attempt to exert their influence on its surroundings. The lion does not build a legacy, all is provided, children are raised, and the place is indifferent of their existence. Such is not a tragedy, it is beautiful, we should be able to walk through a forest and be no different than a rock strewn across the ground. To just be, instead of all these machinations to ‘prove’ our existence to this world, to carve names into a tree, to ‘make history’. Death is a beautiful release, an amalgamation of love borne of all that is, blessed upon one in their final moment.
Until then, be, exist, do as you please, enjoy, love, laugh, and feel. ALL of life, the labelled objects of ‘good’ and ‘bad’, every moment is one to be grateful for. If asked of “well how do you know if you have the right answer?” a simple reply of: “truth is subjective, this is the one I’ve found to work best for me… Trial and error is the way to ensure we have the best path for us.”
Meditate. Find yourself in harmony.